Ever had to let someone go but you knew you couldn't? That's my problem now. I know that I should let David, my ex, go but I'm having a hard time doing it. I mean for the last eight years of my life his been there, good, bad or indifferent he's been there. After the break up I thought it would be a good idea to take a break from each other. But I'm not sticking to it. It's like everytime I want to pull away something pulls me back...I don't know why but ever since we met I have always had the desire, need, whatever you want to call it to be there for him and support him in whatever he was going through. But I can't explain why. It's weird because I don't really feel that way for other people. I mean sure I want to help my friends in any way that I can but when they refuse my help it doesn't bother me for the most part I can just let it go. But it's different with David. I feel like he tries to take on the world by himself but he doesn't have to. I'm always willing to help, be there for him, whatever it is that he needs. But just like me he tries to do everything alone. And maybe that's want attracted me to him in the first place, he's a lot like me in someways. He's my best friend...So how to I stick to my plan of taking time away from each other when I really want to be there? IDK but I have to try. I have to see if I can be without him. See if these feelings are real or just a school girl crush. You know what they say absence makes the heart grow fonder. No matter what happens I hope that in the end I get my best friend back. That guy that could make me laugh even when I wanted to cry because that is what's really important. My friendship with him means more to me than anything else.
Fell in Love - Priscilla Renea
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