Welcome to the World of Ms. Anonymous!

Welcome to the world of Ms. Anonymous...I don't expect anyone to read this but writing has always been my outlet to clear things out of my head, so here it goes...

So here's the deal...I SUCK AT RELATIONSHIPS...and no matter how hard I try nothing works. I know some people say "Oh, you just haven't found the right person yet" but that's crap...I'm realizing that maybe it's not the guys, maybe its me. Maybe I expect too much and no one is ever gonna be able to give me exactly what I want. But I didn't think that I was asking too much. All I ask is that you be there, send time with me, talk to me, actually be around but thus far I have not been able to find what I want. But that could be my choice in guys...I like guys that have goals and dreams which can make them busy but it should still leave time for them to live their lives. But as I learned today that's not right at all. And a commitment to me is emotionally taxing.

So what is there to do now...stay single and wait for the next guy to come along and disappoint me or I can do what guys do and date as many guys as possible until I find one that's right for me. Only that's not what I want to do. If I really wanted that I wouldn't have made the commitment in the first place. But that doesn't matter now. Now I have to pick myself up and move on. What's the point of holding on to someone who wants to be set free?

LOVE does it really exist or is it a figment of our imagination...